Timmy Lai

Yes! I was about to add a new blog entry and realised it's been years since I blogged last. Just two days ago, I dropped the 'blogspot' word from my domain name. Yay! I'm back and I'm trying to revive my blog after years of hiatus.  I've been feeling guilty about it almost every day (it's a lie) and I needed some sort of inspiration to start blogging again. So I decided to switched my blog's URL (domain name) from www.timmy-lai.blogspot.com to www.timmylai.com.  I hope this move will give me some sort of motivation to start  blogging again... *Excuses Excuses Excuses The truth is I don't want to buy a domain name and continue sitting around procastinating. Here you go. :)

Sunday - 13th June 2010 - Crystal Jade, Mid Valley. It was a Sunday evening, and Tania had promised to pick me up from my house before bringing me to Mid Valley to meet her parents. She'd dropped that little surprise on me the week before 'The Day'. Now, I had nothing against meeting her parents, mind you. I was sure they were wonderful people and all that, but if I had my way, I would prefer an informal one. And to top it off, the dinner was on Father's Day. Bla bla bla...excuses, excuses and excuses! As a Matter-Of-Fact, I was scared out of my pants that day.  I was pretty sure things will turn out well, though I kept my fingers crossed - I have loads of questions about her parents that cross my mind; how would her parents treat me if I kept their daughter out until the wee hours, even if all we did was walking in a park?  Granted, she was an adult, but parents being parents when it came to their own kids, and I was under no illusions that they...

Sunday morning started out well - as the sun came slanting through the blinds, I found my yellow Liverpool jacket and shuffled myself ( half asleep) to the kitchen to pour myself a glass of water, looking forward to a leisurely morning. It was only afterward that things started to go a bit nervous. Even before I took my first sip, I remembered my heart pounding all day and night for the past few days. Well not exactly a date like my title suggested but it's more like a planned lunch kinda a thing. Time is relative. I know I'm not the first one to realize it and my realization had nothing to do with will power, perfect timing or any theory that Einstein might have postulated. Rather, it had to do with the drag of hours to the first date itself. Yes. I'm nervous. Everyday, I thought about her. I thought of her again after I woke. I read a bit of the latest news on papers, showered and threw a pair of slacks and shirt, then read for another couple of minutes before ...

So far, there's never been a puff, bang, boom for me. Nothing even close, for that matter. Sure. there was my ex. Some people at church seemed to think we were perfect for each other and every now and then I'd run into her at church. We chatted once at church bookshop for a minute or so about nothing important and then amicably go our separate ways. There's had been a few before my ex, of course. I wasn't entirely clueless when it came to women, after all. I found them attractive and interesting, but more than that, I was genuinely fond of them. I was proud of the fact that I'd never shed a tear from the recent break-up despite remotely be considered a painful one. Not all breakups are mutual. Thankfully most of it petering out like a soggy fuse on a fire cracker as opposed to the big kaboom of fireworks overhead. I considered myself still friends with all my exes - R* ( lives in Indonesia now ) included - and figured they'd say the same thing abo...

Sunday, September 27, 2009 - Old Town White Coffee, Jaya One After an adrenaline - heart pumping Go-Kart ride with my cell mates at Shah Alam, we adjourned back to PJ for a cup of tea. Upon leaving the cafe, I shuffled my feet, then looked up at Tania. "I heard that you would like to learn the guitar. If you don't mind, I can teach you." I said with a smile. "Sure," she said."  The rest is history.. I may be surprised by her answer, but I didn't show it. I thought if she did learn with me, it'll give me a chance to get to know her. I couldn't help it. I really like her and it seemed like the right to do. For an instant, I thought I'd simply turn and leave. But again I couldn't take my eyes off her and held for just a beat too long. I couldn't help it... I stood by the window, watching Tania walking back to her car. I was smiling to myself, amused by her expressions. Though I barely knew her, I've s...

It had to be Tania, I thought, though for the life of myself, I couldn't understand why. I barely knew her, and I doubted whether I'd even had a chance to meet the real Tania Chong yet. Oh, I'd seen the angry one yesterday night at the cinema for saying the wrong words and the mea culpa one on MSN just a little while ago, but I had no idea how she behaved under ordinary circumstances. I suspected that she had a good sense of humor, though on close reflection, I couldn't pin down the reason I thought so. And she was no doubt intelligent, though he could have deduced that on the basis of her job. But other than that...I tried and failed to picture her on a date. Still, I was glad she'd come by, if only to give us a chance to start over as good friends. One thing I'd learned was that 'A chicken-out ' spirit without trying could make a person miserable. Common courtesy, it sometimes seemed to me, was going the way of dinosaurs, and the last thing I wan...